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  There are seasons in life when everything feels like it is falling apart at the same time.  I know this because I lived through one. Or maybe many.  There was a time when I didn’t recognize myself anymore. When I experienced the worst of married life, it broke something in me that I thought would never heal. I fell into a slow, heavy darkness, the kind that sits on your chest and makes it hard to breathe.  Depression, anxiety ,  panic attacks … they became my shadow. Most days, I felt like I was disappearing quietly, hoping someone would notice but also wanting to hide. I locked myself away from the world, thinking silence could protect me. It didn’t, but somehow, I survived it. Somehow, I learned to stand up again, shaky but standing. And just when I thought I was finally moving forward, life tested me again. I decided to take a rest from the world, from everyone. I resigned from my job and spent months doing nothing but trying to breathe again, believing my ...

  There are seasons in life when everything feels like it is falling apart at the same time.  I know this because I lived through one. Or maybe many.  There was a time when I didn’t recognize myself anymore. When I experienced the worst of married life, it broke something in me that I thought would never heal. I fell into a slow, heavy darkness, the kind that sits on your chest and makes it hard to breathe.  Depression, anxiety ,  panic attacks … they became my shadow. Most days, I felt like I was disappearing quietly, hoping someone would notice but also wanting to hide. I locked myself away from the world, thinking silence could protect me. It didn’t, but somehow, I survived it. Somehow, I learned to stand up again, shaky but standing. And just when I thought I was finally moving forward, life tested me again. I decided to take a rest from the world, from everyone. I resigned from my job and spent months doing nothing but trying to breathe again, believing my ...